These last 52 weeks

Were, to be completely honest, very difficult for me. 

Here's to hoping that 2010 is ridden with ease and grace and fun. I like those things.

I'm going to say that this year made me stronger and ultimately more capable. But, it wasn't without a struggle. Or not so much a struggle as a bitter ass-kicking. Anyways, I don't have much to say about 2009 other than that it was hard and a lot of things happened. I mean, it was a whole year. Incidentally there were 3 Friday the 13ths in it. That, I think, counts for something. I look at my list of goals that I set out to accomplish and find that not all of them have lines through them. Oh well, there's still 6 hours left. Who knows? 

Peace to everyone

: ]

And....Stop.

I have all of this free time now. My last final was yesterday and after I took it I found out that all I needed to pass class was basically to write my name on a blue book and hand it in. I've been pseudo-breaking up until this point because of that one looming obligation but now I can reeeeelax. in full. I went out on Thursday (gasp!) I slept in almost every day this week (shock and awe!) and generally find life pleasant, currently (Aieeee!)

It's true.  

Hello, Depression

I've been expecting you. 

There's a reason they call this dead week, folks. My life HUUURRRTTTSSSS right now. Wah, wah, wah. Whine, grovel, moannnnn. I hate everything. Even puppies. 

So, yeah. that's that. Just spent hours studying for a test on which I'm going to do poorly. Not doing assignments that are due. I don't think I can handle this but that's okay. Everything is going to be fine. I'm going to pass all of my classes. And even if I don't, that's okay. 

Shhhh, inner voice, Shhhh

I'm alright. Or not, but I will be. 

Did I have fun?

Yep.

Will I have fun?

Yep.

Am I having fun now? Well.....that's going to be a resounding NOPE.

School is almost over. I've essentially given up at everything. I doubt I'm going to retain my job, I'm not going to get an A in that unreasonable history class. The only thing that keeps me going is the fact that winter break will be eventful. And mostly eventful in a good way, hopefully. 

So, that's about it as of now. I'm thinking of maybe considering the possibility of contemplating quitting school. It's that bad lately. No motivation and stuff. Oh well.

Oh, and I have a mohawk now. win?