Gestresst

Hoo boy.

Something I thought I was done with for a while: working 30+ hour weeks while going to University and generally trying to maintain homeostasis. Also, applying to grad school again (which is turning out to be expensive) I look forward to that time around february/march next year when I can say: Remember when I had no freaking clue what I wanted to do? Well...now I have options....found a replacement to plan B as mentioned in the previous post, because it wasn't going to work out. And this time, I KNOW I'm qualified. Intercultural Communications. It's kinda what I studied. and by kinda I mean EXACTLY. I'm pretty sure, I'll get in but ya know knock on wood, I'll see you next semester...blah. Tonight I'm going to play at the Christmas Market and possibly go to a friends jam session. Orrrr maybe just fall asleep at 8pm...

How's it going?

 Sooo, at any given moment...this is careening it's way through my brain at 90 miles an hour. I love it when my brain picks up one aspect of it and then worries, like a dog with a bone. Add that and the fact that my self worth is all tied up in there with my rate of success. Also the mild panic attacks every time I think NOTHING could work out....but yes....this:

Plan A: Get into the Germanistik im Kulturvergleich masters program here in Heidelberg...keep my apartment, friends, life, jobs..that last one is important. I'm already kind of active in the field that I want to end up in: being a coordinator of an exchange program. It would be a huge setback to lose out on the opportunity to get paid to collect experience.

Plan B: Get into Uni Potsdam for Kommunikation, Variation und Mehrsprachigkeit. I majored in Comm...and speak multiple languages. I hope they would let me do this because then I could possibly do a doctorate aftewards in clinical linguistics.I'm not technically qualified though and we all know how German bureacracy loves technicalities.

Plan C: Get into Uni Potsdam for Anglophone Modernities in Literature and Culture. I studied in an Anglophone country. One of the focus areas is Gender (which I definitely  was a graduate assistant of a class whose subject was very similar) also the teacher said my case sounds interesting enough. Writing motivation letters is not my strong suit, I guess.

Plan D: Get into Uni Humboldt zu Berlin for a Global studies masters. So, check it: 1st semester: Berlin. 2nd Semester: Buenos Aires. 3rd Semester: Bangkok. 4th Semester: Berlin. BOOM. Although I have no idea how I would finance it.

Plan E: Do a THIRD bachelors at Uni Heidelberg in something that would better prepare me for a masters here in Germany. Even though I already have two...this tends to lengthen the amount of time that I would ultimately end up spending in Germany...not that I don't like it here..but I was planning on moving on to Mexico or Spain after a couple of years...also the lovely lady at the alien authority is under the impresssion that I will be in a masters program. So that would be another battle I'd have to fight. Plus: which bachelors? something I could do quickly, I think. I could also apply for a masters that only has openings next semester after one semester of being a bachelors student.

Plan F: Get into the Monterey Institute of International studies for Translation and Interpretation. I don't know how I would finance this if I didnt win the scholarship. It's also in the United States which is not where I think I'm going to end up.


..yeah. Working hard to make it all go according to plan. We'll see!