Like you do

I went to Thanksgiving dinner in Tübingen this weekend. It confirmed a few things...One, that I like to eat. Two, that I'm really glad I didn't go to Tübingen my first semester. Yep. Heidelberg is where I should be.

I've been listening to Regina Spektor a lot. Oh Regina...

I've also decided that I want these:

http://seavees.com/images/uploads/55b61532_sMax.jpg

for the winter. If I have to wear winter boots, I might as well be fashionable. Also, they're out of San Francisco, which is cool. I also need a jacket...In a perfect world where money is nothing, I would have already bought the €200 one at EDC or I would buy this work of art

http://web233.revolveclothing.com/images/p/n/d/KRAN-MO2_V1.jpg

alas, I'm not rich and comfortable yet.


One thing that stuck with me was hanging out with my friend, she used the phrase "All I do in Stuttgart is have fun"

Wow. I'm going to be more like that. I feel like I'm in a position where I should be having fun. Tons of it. So let's start, okay?

Week.

I feel it.

I have a lot to do this week...and I'm not sure I'm ready for that. I have to not be sick, finish my DAAD application, homework, work out and work on the DAI project outline. Oof. Too much to think about on a Sunday evening.

Sickness

I knew it was going to happen eventually.

My roommate has infected me. I can't talk or sing and it sucks. Oh well...It'll pass. Like everything else.

I get sick, I get sad, I get hungry, I'm okay. And it all goes away.

Not into today

I just wasn't...Woke up after getting too little sleep, Went to class, came back home and slept. and slept. and didn't go to the gym. and slept. Then I went to class again which wasn't that bad, despite being super confusing and discussing Hegel (?) in a class about Franz Schubert. Oh well...I think I got most of it, which is surprising. Then Choir rehearsal. I like singing...I wish it didn't hurt sometimes.

And now, after having me a Time, I'm going to go to sleep again and hopefully everything will get better like it did the last time.

Booooooundaries

Okay.

So...not okay.

I've been thinking about something and despite how incredibly dramatic and emo it sounds, it kind of makes sense:

I build walls not to keep people out but, to see who cares enough to break them down.


For the most part, that's true. Although, there are people who I'd pretty much like to keep out...or at least to a safe distance. UGH. Vulnerability. I should either learn to be okay with it or...I dunno. Something else. I'd much rather be happy and light and relaxed and everything. But, for some reason...things bother me. Like when people forget my birthday. Even though I pretty much wanted to spend it all alone, eating ice cream in the dark (But seriously)
I wish I could be, like I say so often, Over it. Beyond it. Above it. Yet it pulls me back. Because I'm human and feel the need to sometimes connect to people. Despite how disappointing we are. BUHHHHHHHHH...High school. Feelings. Bleh.

On a better note, I did get Birthday cards today. With Candy und Geld. Mmmmm Geld....and Caaaandy....

Birthday Food

and that is just a few of the thousands of calories I ate. Oh well, I feel the need to eat my feelings this birthday.
I went out with my roommate, met up with the "eh"-mericans, had dinner and ultimately didn't end up watching Bridget Jones' Diary with a carton of ice cream and sweatpants. Which is something...

I'm still 21

Yep. For a few more hours at least.

My last day of being 21 one has been/will be spent being in class, meeting with the Coordinator for the CSU/IP program, going to the gym, working on my "Other America" thing and going to Choir rehearsal. Fairly okay, I guess.