My Dilemma is this:

I need a car. And the whole trip from arkansas with Brandon and Christy was supposed to make it all better. However, it was too late to schedule that little endeavour so last minute. And, I also need a license. But for that i need a car. But, wait! it gets better. Theres this person named Sam. Who magnanimously offered to give me a ride to arkansas. The only problem is he is leaving during next week. Which means, no san francisco pride and i'd be out of work for about a week. Even though I don't really have a ride to San Francisco. But, I REALLY REALLY want to go! I suppose I could wait for my aunt to bring me the car in July...

The Pros of going to Arkansas:
I get a car
I get to hang out with a cool guy
I get to see my friends however briefly

The Cons of going to Arkansas
I don't get to go to Pride
I won't be able to make as much money
I have to get my license now

The Pros of staying here
I don't have to pay all of the gas money to come back
I get to make money at work
I get to go to Pride (maybe)

The cons of staying here
I won't get a car until much later
I won't get to see my friends (but, I probably wouldn't have anyways)
I might not even go to Pride...


I suppose i'll have to talk to my boss, Sam, my mom, my aunt, and anybody who is hopefull willing to give me a ride to San Francisco.

Decisions, Decisions....

How amazing

is being a high school graduate, you ask? It's rather wonderful. I vote yes on it. And in this democratic day and age, I believe that high school graduate status is the platform for the future! Mwahahahah!!! But, seriously, it's pretty cool to realize that I never have to go to that horrible place ever again. Ever. I have my diploma, I have my college life ahead of me (hopefully), Life is good. Now all I must do is enjoy my last summer at home. And somehow figure out where I'm going to live and how cost effective it must be. Speaking of cost effective, I'm going to arkansas. Randomly, I have decided that in order to get the car that my aunt has said that she would give me, I will road trip back to california after flying there. In a week. I should have planned this earlier. But, the seat of my pants is what I fly by! And that's just how I roll. It will be fun. Me, Brandon and Christy being our cohesively amazing selves.

Not that great

I've realized that senior activities and the senior class in general are....mediocre at best. Today was the pool party which was less than enthralling. At least there was free food. There seems to be a running trend in my posts as of late. But, tonight is Senior Showcase and I'll be playing Arban's 1 or 11, I forget. I'll have to remember to warm up this time. In other news, my sister gave me her yearbook which was very nice of her. They are way too expensive but, nice to have I suppose. I'm only letting people I actually care about sign it. Ah, the memories.

Food: It tastes better when it's free

It's totally true. Today, i was nourished solely on the provisions of others. And it was AWESOME. Senior "breakfast" was blintzes (sp?) from the Metchik house. Amazing little squares of cheese, egg goodness with jelly and sour cream. I ate far too many. And then cheesecake. After this artery clogging culinary spectacle, I also went to the Urinetown Cast party despite the dubious fact that I am not really a part of the cast. It was okay. Mainly because of the bread. T'was delicious despite the fact that I wasn't and am still not all that hungry. Andy's house is (as expected) large and expensive looking. Aside from the Santa Maria Barbecued ribs, I'm fairly sure all the food was lovely. Vegetarianism doesn't go over too well in Santa. Ahhhhh.... I'm partially satisfied. There are just a few odds and ends that drastically need tying up. In other news, I graduate in 5 effing days and I can't wait. Despite the fact that college is looking like about a 70% surety, I'd say, I still cannot wait for summer to be here. I'll be working, hanging out, practicing.... Yes. All very necessary things.
*completely unrelated*
I was driving home with Juliana and she was explaining a drama exercise that she had done with PCPA at a summer camp. She said that the purpose of the exercise was to "walk with purpose". The teachers instructed people to imagine their favorite places and walk with that image in one's head. I paused to think about this: I don't have a favorite place.
Interesting. I have lost this piece of mental real estate before it even came into existence. A few possibilities popped up such as: Downtown SLO, on stage, or Biddle park but, No. None of these are right. I think my favorite place to be is: asleep. which isn't really a place but, more of a state of being. And we come full circle; there is no place like home, there is no place like home.

I'm graduating

and I though everyone should know this. It's really happening. All of the unnecessary bullshit hoops I've had to jump through, all of the people that I've had to deal with, all of the things that have been forced down my throat that I simply don't want.

Done.

in about 8 days. This existence is almost over. and a new one will begin. I'm so happy with what will happen. I think for the first time in my life, I'm actually, genuinely excited about the future. I literally don't want to wait. Haha.
Even though there are still many things that have to be taken care of. Mainly, money and housing, but i'm not caring about that right now. I know now for a fact that while the band is playing pomp and circumstance (largely out of tune) that I will hear my name called and go to shake the hand of authority whilst wrestling from him the cheap proof of my achievements. I will graduate high school.
Today has been a very good day.

Prom Night

Is going on as I write this. As I write this, someone is probably getting impregnated. On the dance floor.
ewwwww....
Seriously though, it was my last opportunity to go to prom. And, well....I don't care as much as I should, really. The most productive thing I've done all day is watch 12 episodes of Death Note. And talk to people on AIM. I'm so cool.
Reasons I'm not going to prom: No date, No money, No burning desire to go. If I had wanted to badly enough, I'm sure I could have found a date and some money but, *myeh* not so terribly worth it. So, today i decided to sit and eat and watch anime on my laptop. Incidentally, stale peanut butter cookies are pretty good.

Thirty-two dollars

is the amount of my first paycheck. I worked for a total of four hours, so this means that the eight bucks an hour is the flat rate. No deductions! It's pretty sweet. I am so glad it's friday. TGIMFF. Seriously, I really wanted to not be at school today. The only reason I went was because of Statistics. Why, do I still have to go to school?
It might turn out that I won't have to go to school for a long time....
But, hey at least I'm getting paid as of right now. My next paycheck will be fairly awesome.
Whoever said money can't buy happiness was only partially right. Money might not be able to buy happiness, but it can buy peace of mind.