Why this past week has been AWESOME

Several reasons. All of them equally awesome for different reasons. One of my favorites is that I never ever ever have to walk through these doors at 6:30 in the morning ever again. Ever.



I am finally done with California Overnight. Financially, it might not have been the best move. But, I think for my overall well-being it had to be done. There was no other way around it. I'm tired of doing something that I hate. But now it's Over! Happiness abounds.
Another thing that I enjoyed quite a bit was outreach at the Trans March in Dolores Park. It was an interesting exercise in extroversion. My ability to be outgoing was tested and I think I did an okay job. At any rate, we distributed all of the safer sex packets in less than 4 hours. Safer sex is Sexier sex!




What's that? There's more, you ask? Of course! I was only getting started. So, as part of the San Francisco Gay Men's Chorus and The San Francisco Gay and Lesbian Freedom Band, it goes without saying that during this Gay Pride, I did a fair amount of what I love: Performing. The venue was beautiful! First Universalist Unitarian Church was resplendent with rainbows and it's usual beautiful stained glass windows. I was very satisfied with the performances that I was a part of and entertained by those I was not. All in all, good times.


And then of course, Pride Weekend was a wonderful experience. I felt confident, proud, good-looking, happy, amazing, wonderful, ecstatic, friendly, unified, well-dressed, out of breath, and of course GAY. Pink Saturday was quite wonderful. Frenetic, exuberant dancing and seeing all of my wonderful friends. And of course, Sunday was just as good. Meeting up with old friends from back home and meeting up with new friends that I had just met. To summarize, I would have to say that Gay Pride was pretty much the most fun I've had since I moved to San Francisco.

Celebrating Pride Week

It's Pride Week!! Officially. I've begun the celebration by attending San Francisco's Gay Prom which, in my opinion, was entirely more entertaining than Hayward. The music wasn't as good but, the company was. I danced with several attractive young men. A few of whom are pictured below





So, yep. I had fun. Enjoyed my new camera and all that jazz.

Doing things

Yep. It's how I've been. Doing things and stuff and messing around. Today I went shopping like I said I would. Bought one expensive shirt and said "Eff this noise" and spent about 12 bucks at the thrift store on 3 things. I'll always be a Thrifty guy...Except when it comes to extravagances that I occasionally indulge in (that I shouldn't)
Speaking of which, a camera that I kind of accidentally bought on Ebay will be here tomorrow hopefully. Now I can have pictures on this deal. I'm kind of really excited about it actually. Kind of worth the 60 bucks I paid for it. Oh, I'll be fashionable and well documented all the way to the poorhouse.
I'm definitely excited for tomorrow and this weekend. I have to do some homework and clean my room tomorrow but, other than that I'm going to SF Gay Prom! Should be a good time. I might be able to take pictures. Yay...

Not expecting it

Weird. So, yesterday I went to LYRIC after working my morning shift and going to school. Wasn't expecting too much other than a time to chill and possibly take a nap on the couch while the other participants work themselves into a tizzy over something or other. It was much to my surprise, however, that throughout the day there were no less than FIVE attractive folks in attendance. Interesting. Very much so. I assume LYRIC was saving it up for that one day. It's once in a blue moon and never will I see the likes of it again. Oh well, I enjoyed the networking and community building (haha) while it lasted.
Other than that, not too much has been happening. I only have 7 work days left at California Overnight. As the end draws nearer, i'm becoming more apprehensive about my need and ability to find another job that will fit with my schedule. But I don't think I could stomach the job any longer. I hate it the most out of anything here hands down.
I was selected to be one of two soloists on a song for SFGMC's pride concert. That's pretty exciting, I suppose. Ummm other than that, I simply cannot wait for the weekend. San Francisco Gay Prom is coming up and the Pride Concert potluck is this Sunday. I think I'm going to do a small amount of shopping tomorrow. Maybe I can afford it...Oh well, retail therapy will do some good for me.

Dissatisfied with my image

I hesitate, at first to write this blog. I don't know exactly how I feel about myself, life, everything specifically or in general. Perhaps it will help me figure it out. I just don't know. It's one of THOSE days. Because I am one of THOSE kinds of guys. And what does that mean? I was talking to my friend about how I know that I am not absolutely anything. I'm not absolutely one facet of my identity solely. I think this bothers me more than I initially realized. I am mercurial, tempestuous, ever-changing, indecisive and not entirely sure how I present myself. What I think of me. What others think. I'm not sure if I care or not.
One thing that I can say is that I'm not happy with my life presently. As in, at this exact moment in time. It's definitely going to change. Probably soon. But, right now...nope. I don't like my living situation, how I look, my academic life, my social life, or my love life. I think i'm going through some sort of chemically-based depression. Perhaps I need to start eating meat again? GAHHHH!!!
See? there it is once again. I don't know myself. How can I ever be proud of being him?
Anyways. This blog was not intended to make its reader feel worse. And by that I mean that I know I'll go back and read it and question why I even posted it. It sort of helped. A little bit. And that's what this thinger is for.

Gay Prom

So, it's Gay Pride month. You know what that means? Lots and lots of queer events. One of which I went to last night. Gay Prom in Hayward was an interesting affair.

There was a suspicious lack of cute guys which was slightly unnerving. Also, many of them looked (and were) about 12 years old. Cute, in a baby turtle kind of way. Not so much the I want to dance with you kind of way. Oh well, at least my friend and I had fun. The weekends are turning out to be the sort of reprieve I desperately need. I only wish they were longer.

I'm not going to let it bother me

I'm just not. It's unfortunate that my roommate is a hypocritical and prejudiced individual but, oh well. I guess if he has a problem with me then....well...he has a problem! Nothing to concern myself with. It's also unfortunate that I hate it when I get texts now because I'm afraid it's going to be one of the prodigious, bull-shit filled uber-texts I get from my landlord about paying for things and responsibility. Blah, blah, blah....You get your overinflated rent from me, what more do you want?!
Anyways, The purpose of this post was to vent all of that out and then to move on to discussing more blog worthy activities. This Saturday i'm going to my first Gay prom. Yay! I know I'll see at least 15 youth from the Bay area that I know. It's kind of exciting. I'm also playing outside to drown out the protesters with the San Francisco Gay and Lesbian Freedom Band. Should be a good one, eh? Also, today I'm going to a spoken word event and possibly going skating with a queer group from school. I'm so glad the weekend is here!