Food for thought

It's irritating that I keep seeing the Attractive Play-Going Companion everywhere I turn. Literally I have seen him 3 times this week. We don't have any classes together but, for some reason he keeps turning up in the creative arts building, when I'm walking to class, On MUNI.....
Of course, I have to act like it doesn't bother me. But, I don't know why. Every time I see his face, he looks rather displeased. Which only furthers my goal of being nonchalant about the whole ordeal. I guess if he tried to talk to me I'd be civil. Heck, I'd probably be friendly. But, I doubt that's going to happen. Oh well, the school year is almost over and I don't have to deal with it anymore. SFSU is a rather big campus. And there are people that I would actually like to see that I haven't seen yet this week. 3 times?! Especially, in the creative arts building. I rule here. Go away before someone drops a house on you...Anyways, I just had to get that off of my chest.

Back to the point of this post.

So, I was in my lesson and it was going rather well. Having an hour (instead of 30 minutes like I usually do) meant that my trumpet professor and I had the opportunity to discuss things that we wouldn't normally get to. So, we were talking about the psychology of any audition/performance and how it's possible to get so nervous that you don't have any idea what's going on and simply act. He made the analogy of it being like going on a date and not knowing what to say but, just saying anything. He asked if I ever do that which I thought was an odd question. I told him that I live my life like that. Most of what I say is simply projected through the filter-less hole on the front of my face seconds after coming up with it. I honestly find myself talking and wondering "Do I really sound like that? Is that what I actually think?" And of course, I do. And it usually is. Most times. Which was interesting to him because apparently (at least from his perspective) I come off like I know what I'm talking about. So, I guess I've pulled off the confidence act rather well. I guess it's interesting that once again, I have no idea what my image to others is. I should probably give serious consideration to thinking before I say things. But, I guess that's neither here nor there.