Friday, January 29, 2010
Can't Sleep.
So, I blog instead. I'm starting a pattern, I think. I've been starting those a lot lately. I started oil-pulling, going to the gym on a regular basis, going to school, and writing in my journal again. I hope all of these things are going to benefit me in the long run. Hoo boy, the long run. I think that's what is keeping me up at night. According to my horoscope and Rob Brezny, for the first half of 2010 my calling will whisper seductively as I go to sleep. It will agitate me with its rippling commands to spring into action. The whole deal is that I can't sleep because I'm obsessing over these damn summer program audition CDs that are due February 1st and the National Orchestral Institute audition on tuesday. And then I can start to think about getting back to fundamentals and my junior recital. And just think, this time next year I'll know where I'm going to grad school. Ugggghhhh I hope I'm ready. I hope I get it. I think tonight was a series of signs but, I've yet to interpret them. I don't know how to achieve my purpose. I know what it is but, I just don't know how to do it yet. Story of my life. I'll figure it out. I just have to set very clear goals.
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I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I remember a day during your senior year when you were lamenting that you hadn't heard back about your SFSU audition and you were assuming you hadn't gotten into the music department. I said, "Gian, you're going! If you didn't pass the audition then you'll practice more and audition again." And you said, "Hey, yeah, I'm going!" And then good news started pouring in--your scholarships, your successful audition and acceptance into the program.
You seem to have momentary lapses when you forget where you're going, but you always pick up the trail again and slog on. That's one of the things I admire about you. I can't tell you enough how much you inspire me, and thinking about how you navigated yourself out of Nipomo and on to bigger and better things makes me happy. I've had many students over the years who I remember with fondness, but you are the star, because you never give up (for long) and you never forget where you came from. You're an enlightened soul who sometimes masquerades as a cranky pessimist.
I can't even start to tell you how much you've helped me and how much you continue to do so
Thank you SO MUCH
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Well, try not being able to sleep cuz your mind is on ppl making fun of you none stop and that frigging shitty man!! i hate it, i am stilll not able to sleep because i am being called a man because of my hair cut, waaaay too short, now i am the laughing stalk of the whole school, sadly. has this ever happened too you? i don't think so, so ya i am always in a pissy mood. hopefully you can give me some advice, i will be sooo happy if you gave me some advice for my shitty life, PLEASE HELP ME!!!
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