The first of Five

Last saturday, I got an email from the University of Heidelberg with the german equivalent of: We are pleased to announce that you have been accepted to the Master's program of Germanistik im Kulturvergleich with an emphasis of Literature studies at the University of Heidelberg.

Okay. yes.

Just had to let that sink in. I am quite pleased that everything is going to plan and the back-ups and back-ups won't be necessary....or will they? Everything about staying in Heidelberg is good...I keep my friends, my life, my apartment, my jobs, everything I've worked hard for. And yet, the biggest problem is the means itself: I don't know ANYTHING about literature studies. Every single other program is something that I would be excited to do. Intercultural communications, Global studies, Languages, Travelling...all kinds of good stuff. And now that I have the grapes, are they turning sour? SEE?! that was probably a bastardization of some story or another that I don't understand because, again, don't know anything about literature. Especially German literature! I just started speaking this language less than three years ago...how the helll am I going to keep up with the native speakers? Ugh. I'm already getting panic attacks about it. Not something that one should think about the study program to which they are going to devote the next two years of their life...

And now the decisions...I don't know what I should do. As it stands now, I can only go to Heidelberg...but of course I'm going to get into the other programs. I've already spoken to the Universe. This is the first acceptance of five...but what then? What when I have the choice? Do I go to Berlin, Buenos Aires, New Delhi, and Berlin for Global Studies? Do I go to Berlin (and commute 2 hours a day) for the AWESOME program of Intercultural Communications? Do I go to Potsdam and live in Berlin for Anglophone Modernities? Do I fly back to the United States for the guaranteed expensive and high quality education of the Monterey Institue of International Studies? Or do I stay in Heidelberg, enjoying my hard-earned life and potentially sucking at a Master's degree I'm only partially qualified for? I just don't know. Let the spastic excel spreadsheet/pie chart flow graph making commence.