I just want

to be NOT SICK for an extended period of time

to practice (and get better)

to eat a lot of food

to go home and not deal with my apartment right now

to see mein Freund

to hang out with all my friends

as well as a lot of other things. Maybe I should clean my room, too. In my current stage of immobility, it has become disgusting. No cleaning, no studying, just lazing about. And not even the good kind either. I hope my tonsils don't need to be taken out...

Aches and Pains

Seriously. BODY! What the fuck?? first it was my back....then it was my stomach and now it's my throat. Can you just chill the fuck out and work like you're supposed to? Rage and anger....

The most upsetting thing is that I actually WANT to practice today but I can't when the mechanism that usually produces a vibrating column of air produces a vibrating column of ow.

Blehhhh

So, now I guess I'll just study German. I've decided that instead of taking German 101 Basic German, I'm going to take German 206 Intermediate Conversation. I think I can do it...I have the book for 101 and 102, the prerequisites for this class, and I know a guy who's going to be in it that didn't take 102...yes, I'm capable of this. Next semester will be difficult, I think but not in an impossible way.

Anyways, I want mango sorbet....yummmm

House sitting!

So, I've been house sitting in Bernal Heights. It's kind of awesome. Big house, no roommates, cute dog, huge computer. 'Tis nice.

I went out with the Blue eyed boy last night dancing. It was a lot of fun. I got asked to walk in a fashion show! Pretty exciting

This morning I tried to go get food stamps, which is something I've been trying (and failing) to do for the past month. In my defense I have to wake up really, really early to get to the place on time...and we all know that's kind of not my thing. One more try, I think.

Yep, Summer, summer, summer

I registered for classes next semester. Taking 2 Comm. classes and the rest of my music courses. Also, I can't decide if I should try to switch into German 206...the prerequisite classes are 2 semesters of German but, I have been studying pretty hard. I'm good at learning languages, I know I can do it. But do I want to? Hmmm....

I have one month until school starts. Until then I want to:

Start going back to the gym (no but really)

Study German err' day

Practice and practice well

Get my EBT card

Maybe go clothes shopping? I haven't in more than a year

Yep, that's that.

In San Francisco for the moment

Now that I'm done with summer programs and running around, I'm probably just going to exist in San Francisco for a bit. That's probably okay with me.

Went to see the symphony play music by Mexican composers in celebration of the bicentennial anniversary of Mexican independence.

Hung out with a friend and did all that jazz. I would like to start being social again now that I'm back in the city. I think it's going to happen...We only have a month left until the semester starts...

The Art of Sound

Summer Brass Institute. It lasted 10 days. Some really good players (a lot better than I am) Some really intense music (that I tried my best to play well) and an overall positive experience, I think. I had a lesson with Mark Inouye, the principal trumpet of the San Francisco Symphony, and David Burkhart. They both teach at the Conservatory, where I want to go to graduate school. The lesson with Mark was less than spectacular (because of me, of course) but the lesson with Dave was really good. I have new focus now, I think. Figuratively and literally: I'm blowing into my mouthpiece in an entirely different way....haha.

I met some amazing people and confirmed my suspicion that, yes, brass musicians are all awkward people. Lovably so, of course. There were so many people there wearing cargo pants, polos and running shorts. So much privilege and opportunity. The facility was on a high school campus that costs literally 8 times as much to attend as my university. Crazy...

If I hadn't had to commute every day, I think I could have gotten a lot more out of it. Oh well, next year I know what I'm going to do.

I have yet to form an opinion

still at the Summer Brass Institute. Which is so far going well...I think. I am waiting to form an opinion of it lest that opinion flavor the rest of my week here. I think this is a safe bet...

Being here reminds me that I'm not that good at playing trumpet

I can feel myself getting better because of it, though. Double-edged sword, I guess. These people are my competition. I hate that...

So, yeah. Fun music. Being challenged by my quintet and actually working with legit talented people. All good things, I guess.

New things

Learning German. Actually being okay with my body. New edition of my Journal. Applying for a Passport. Summer Brass Institute. Thinking of moving out of my apartment.

but then the old things:

Being happy, sad, okay, sad, okay, sad. Going to the gym every day. Practicing trumpet and feeling like I'm not good enough/getting better. Eating. Sleeping. Breathing.

yep, yep. Being productive staves off the blahs. I'm okay.