Merry...Weihnachten?

video.

Something about lemons

and getting them or going the other way or something...I dunno.

This last weekend was quite possibly the most UNsatisfying weekend I've had thus far. Outside of a short party on Friday and a lovely brunch with some new German friends, everything was terrible. Or everything was great outside of most of Saturday and Sunday...

Friday night, a friend and I ditched a pretty chill party to go to a club where I ended up having to pay 50 euros because I lost my payment-tally-card-thing because, ya know, GERMANY.

Saturday was spent recovering because I didn't get home until 7AM.

Sunday was the brunch which was actually cool and cheap and yummy. And then I went out on this date with a guy that ended up being kind of drunk and loser-y and mad that I didn't want to go home with him. After the first date. Ooookay.

So, now I'm going to school.

Like you do

I went to Thanksgiving dinner in Tübingen this weekend. It confirmed a few things...One, that I like to eat. Two, that I'm really glad I didn't go to Tübingen my first semester. Yep. Heidelberg is where I should be.

I've been listening to Regina Spektor a lot. Oh Regina...

I've also decided that I want these:

http://seavees.com/images/uploads/55b61532_sMax.jpg

for the winter. If I have to wear winter boots, I might as well be fashionable. Also, they're out of San Francisco, which is cool. I also need a jacket...In a perfect world where money is nothing, I would have already bought the €200 one at EDC or I would buy this work of art

http://web233.revolveclothing.com/images/p/n/d/KRAN-MO2_V1.jpg

alas, I'm not rich and comfortable yet.


One thing that stuck with me was hanging out with my friend, she used the phrase "All I do in Stuttgart is have fun"

Wow. I'm going to be more like that. I feel like I'm in a position where I should be having fun. Tons of it. So let's start, okay?

Week.

I feel it.

I have a lot to do this week...and I'm not sure I'm ready for that. I have to not be sick, finish my DAAD application, homework, work out and work on the DAI project outline. Oof. Too much to think about on a Sunday evening.

Sickness

I knew it was going to happen eventually.

My roommate has infected me. I can't talk or sing and it sucks. Oh well...It'll pass. Like everything else.

I get sick, I get sad, I get hungry, I'm okay. And it all goes away.

Not into today

I just wasn't...Woke up after getting too little sleep, Went to class, came back home and slept. and slept. and didn't go to the gym. and slept. Then I went to class again which wasn't that bad, despite being super confusing and discussing Hegel (?) in a class about Franz Schubert. Oh well...I think I got most of it, which is surprising. Then Choir rehearsal. I like singing...I wish it didn't hurt sometimes.

And now, after having me a Time, I'm going to go to sleep again and hopefully everything will get better like it did the last time.

Booooooundaries

Okay.

So...not okay.

I've been thinking about something and despite how incredibly dramatic and emo it sounds, it kind of makes sense:

I build walls not to keep people out but, to see who cares enough to break them down.


For the most part, that's true. Although, there are people who I'd pretty much like to keep out...or at least to a safe distance. UGH. Vulnerability. I should either learn to be okay with it or...I dunno. Something else. I'd much rather be happy and light and relaxed and everything. But, for some reason...things bother me. Like when people forget my birthday. Even though I pretty much wanted to spend it all alone, eating ice cream in the dark (But seriously)
I wish I could be, like I say so often, Over it. Beyond it. Above it. Yet it pulls me back. Because I'm human and feel the need to sometimes connect to people. Despite how disappointing we are. BUHHHHHHHHH...High school. Feelings. Bleh.

On a better note, I did get Birthday cards today. With Candy und Geld. Mmmmm Geld....and Caaaandy....