Things

that I have been wanting to do: Get up, Clean, Go Grocery Shopping, see what Zunes are like, Call home, Work out, Eat, Go to LYRIC...and Blog. So far, I'm getting one of those things out of the way. It's looking like I'm not going to be doing much by way of getting the other things done. Oh well. I'm lying here in bed, doing nothing. It's quite wonderful to not have to go to work...then again, I could definitely use the money. Oh, money money money. I wish I had more energy. The day started off with me waking up after spending the night in the GSA Mentor's hotel room. It was wonderful hanging out with them. I just wish that I lived closer to the downtown area, or at least MUNI because they had to go so far out of their way. It would make life easier in any case. Ha, I suppose it will get easier after this February rolls around. I just have to make it up. Get my butt in gear and all that jazz. So, that's what I'm going to do. Start locally and it will have a ripple effect. My beginning: Go Grocery Shopping. It's a shame to have all this cereal and no milk.

My belly feels

somewhat happy. Yet undermined and impregnated with evil. Oh, the wonderful psychology of food and what it does to me. I have a vaguely prejudiced view against food. Partly because of the insane body image problems that we must all face. It's just one of those things that I find strange about myself: I don't enjoy the concept of food. I mean, sure I have some things that I like but if I didn't have to eat to survive; I wouldn't. I've been doing nothing but eat horribly and spend obscene amounts of money. I really should stop that. Today, I did what I came back to do: Work. Work. Work. It was boring and difficult, like usual. At least nothing changed. I get a sense of permanence from that which is quite pleasant so late in the year. It's been a rather tumultuous time. I could use a small amount of regularity. Although, I am waiting for a little change. Which I'm bound to get with the New Year. Part of my multi-faceted resolution will be to work out consistently. Yes, it has now come time.

I'm back...

in San Francisco. The trip up was quite uneventful. Everything has been so-so. I just wish that I didn't have to come home so soon. I hate my job. Very, Very much. The stupid vultures called me in to work the PM shift on New Year's eve! Eff that noise, thank you very much. I'm so done with it...only I'm just starting out. Especially because now that there is no other option but for me to move out February, and I have to make enough for a down payment somewhere else. I might possibly get a lot of money back from the Landlord (security deposit, last months rent). I really, really wish that it didn't have such a hold over me. But, such is the nature of the beast, I suppose. I'm sitting here in the Hyatt with my GSA mentor. I'm spending the night because it will make it easier to go to work. Yay! I can't wait for the New Year. Actually, I can't wait to go back to school. This is the first time that this has happened to me: I'm intensely excited for my education. Until then I'll drudge, drudge, drudge...

Flakiness, Gore, Police and Fun

That was my night. It was quite wonderful, actually. I started the day off in SLO during the day with my sister. We went around until Dad came and found us. After a huge emotional family meltdown, we came back home for a little while and then went out to Dinner which made everything okay. I had picked up Evie(!) and another friend and we all drove out to Cayucos to pick up one of my friends from north county. After that, we milled about until 10:15 when the show started but, not before seeing about a million people that I knew in high school and from SLO. And meeting up with my gorgeous friend to get my beanie that I had left in his car and my awesome friend who came to see Sweeney Todd with us. So, the movie was interesting. And gorey. Very, very gorey. Which, of course, was what we were expecting. The only problem was that my friend from Cayucos was 15 and couldn't get in but luckily another friend was with us that wanted to see Golden Compass, so we all went our seperate ways and decided to meet up after the movies. We get out afterwards and he's nowhere to be seen. I call him and he's not answering which was quite frustrating so, I gave him 5 minutes and we decided to leave him. Honestly, it was 12 in the morning and if he was going to not pick up his phone, it meant he was hanging out with the friend he went to the movies with. Whatever. Speaking of flakiness, after this whole ordeal, I was supposed to meet up with The Roommate to discuss some things. She was at my friend Hannah's house when the movie started which is wonderful because I wanted to see Hannah. So, we're on our way to see Hannah, when I realize that there's this cop following me. It finally turns it's lights on and I think "OH FUCK NO". The police officer walks up and asks for my license and all that jazz. My freaking lights weren't on. In the amped-ness after the movie and the fact that I realized that I left the keys in the car while it was unlocked, I didn't go through the mental checklist that most experienced drivers have. Plus, it was a full moon and everything was really well lit...but, it's still no excuse and I felt like a dumbass. The police officer checks to see if I'm a felon or if I'm high and then sends us on our merry way. Then, I pull up to Hannah's only to realize that the Roommate isn't there. Flakiness abounds! But, it's okay. I had no false pretenses that she had any sense of responsibility left whatsoever. So, I visited with Hannah and we contemplated how our friends have all deteriorated as Human beings. We talked for about 20 minutes and then Evie(!) was tired so, we left because I realize how much I was imposing on her generosity. Then we took our other friend home to Santa Maria and got gas and then came home. T'was quite a night, that night before the night before christmas.

What you know 'bout me?

Ha. Such a whimisical name for a blog that will most likely turn out to be depressing. I'm warning you now, I'm tired and tonight...well, I didn't go badly but, it didn't go as amazingly as I had planned. So, I went to work like normal with a packed bag to go out dancing later. I was supposed to see a movie in between getting off work and going to The Crib. Well, my friend is being sketch so, I decide to go to the movies by myself. Why not? I love my company. So, I go to see Beowulf. Which was an incredibly bad decision. The phrase "I AM BEOWULF" needs to be eradicated from the English Language. The entire plotline was ridiculous although they kind of had to roughly go with the bardic transcription on this one. Even though from what I remember, they didn't do a very good job. Again, that's from what I remember. Anyways, after my friend flakes on me with the movies, she flakes on me at the club, too! I was like "aww Hell naw" because, of course my grammar deteriorates at such events. I called her up and told her to get her ass down there but, to no avail. So, i spent most of my night flitting from this group (that I don't know very well) to that group (which I also don't know very well). It was interesting that I was so out of my element. I asked a few guys to dance but, that didn't go so well. I saw a couple of guys there that I had danced with before. Again, not so well. The most hilarious event of the night: First guy I talked to? Straight. As in, I go to a gay club. Sit down and pick the one guy who is guaranteed to not be interested. I mean sure, there were a lot of guys there not interested but, this guy was 0%. Hilarious. Oh, and I got groped. It made me slightly uncomfortable but then I guess somebody found me attractive. It was a pervy, invasive compliment, I suppose. I don't know. I'm just tired and cross and I have to be up in 3 hours to ride the bus to ride the bus to ride the train home. I'm going home! And then gay things will be the least of my worries. Because Nipomo doesn't have any! Hahaha. But honestly, as of right now I'm a little bit bored with the gay club scene. And the gay community in general. To generalize, they are shallow and not interested in what this tall, relationship-oriented, marginally attractive, seldom flamboyant, okay dancer has to offer. But, it's okay. The moon is beautiful tonight.

Finally

Oh, the play on words...
I did finish my Theory final, after 2 grueling hours of checking and re-checking my answers. I'm quite confident that I received a good grade. It wasn't too bad, actually. I finished and had time to go over it twice. The only bad part about the whole experience was afterwards I had to go home in the rain. But, I can deal. I was dressed comfortably and these new Fuggs repel water quite well. Now, I have nothing to do all day once more. Except for the fact that my supervisor wants me to come in for the P.M. shift...Bleh. In the rain, no less. I could call in to tell them No. I really, really could. But, I suppose I need the money. Even though hourly it's far, far less than what I would have made in the A.M. shift. I really don't want to. I guess I could go early and then go shopping near the Embarcadero and get all of that over with. Then again, Nope. Too Lazy. I'd just like to go to sleep and not wake up until tomorrow. Or Friday, better yet. Tomorrow is the very last day of my first semester at San Francisco State. I only have to do the Piano Final, and write a paper for Philosophy and Communications. I'm almost free. I can taste it.

Almost there...

GAHHH...I went in today for my first final of three this week. Piano in all of it's loveliness. Harmonization of a chosen melody. Whoo fucking hoo. I got an A (+) on it. Whatever that means. Actually, it pretty much means that all I have to do is get an A on the Repertory piece and I'll have an A+ in the class!! How exciting....
I need for this semester to be over. As in, right now. I'm going in for the Theory final tomorrow and the last part of my Piano final on wednesday. I want very much for it to be friday. But, then that would mean that I didn't have time to go shopping for gifts for the familia. Oh well, I just want to go home.
And what am I going to do right now, you ask? Well for the answer: I have no fucking clue. I'm fairly sure that I'm going to do a last little bit of Philosophy homework, laze about, and then go to sleep early so that I may wake up and be refreshed tomorrow. Sounds good? Okay.