Rejection is Exhausting

I run. I rehearse. I come home and eat and then find out that I didn't get into one of the summer programs I've applied to. The first official e-mail I received. And all I wanted to do was sleep, sleep, sleep. 

This week has been long. And it's only Wednesday. Last week I practiced a lot. This weekend I practiced a lot. Maybe more than I ever have. My teacher this week tells me I sound tired and that I should take a break. I'm really frustrated that I want to be good and I'm not yet. And that working towards that goal is somehow furthering me from it. I sound bad a lot of the time. This makes me angry. I desire to be good. And not just good enough but great. I guess it will eventually happen. Grad school auditions are only a few months away and I'm not ready. I think about this every day...