I don't know what to say anymore. I'm very confused and hurt and not over it. But, I will be. I know he's reading this. And I know he probably will have something to say. But, it's okay because we may or may not speak. With that being said, I'm going to take some of his advice and write him a letter:
Dear Attractive play going Companion,
I know that you don't like me as much as I like you. I wish you did. But, that's not going to make a difference, now is it? I would like to be around you but, I don't think it's going to be that great for my psychological well being. I'm sorry, I'm fucked up. Not gonna Lie. You hurt me a great deal. I hate that I make you feel bad. I hate that this is how it's going to end up. I hate that we're not together. I hate that i'm not attractive enough. I hate that you think you're a conceited bastard. I hate that I hate so many things. I wish you could be the one that ends it entirely but, of course you want to be friends or nothing. I want to be in a relationship or nothing. I suppose the common denominator is nothing. I'm not perfect. I wish you wouldn't say things to be nice. I want something real. I don't know why I unfalteringly like you. I just do. It's complicated but, you don't care. Don't try to make yourself feel bad over this. It's not worth it.
Not-Matt
P.S.
Don't read too much into this. I'm just angry and this isn't how I really feel.
1 comment:
Gian,
You will get over it... might take a couple weeks, but until then, go to your friends and family and just vent (since I'm obviously not the person to go to). So it sounds like sappy advice, but hey that's what I do all the time and it helps me deal with problems.
I care about you and it makes me sad that there's nothing we can do to communicate again.
Unless...
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