fun with people

So, just got back from a party where interesting things happened. It was for a friendly acquaintance's birthday. I thought it was awesome that I get to socialize with people on a fairly friendly basis. Even managed to flirt with a boy! Amazing stuff really...social lives are good to have, right?

I had a lesson this morning that wasn't terrible. I haven't practiced at all but that's not the point. My main thing is that I've reached a point where I feel like I can explain myself and be understood. Which is good because I need as much help as I can get in how I'm trying to tailor my experience at San Francisco State. And I guess, life in general. I wish I could be positive and mask all of my negative emotions to be more productive and professional. I guess my thoughts are often times so loud that I feel like other people have to hear them, too. I'm not so good with the whole attitude thing...

It's something I should probably work on but I'm just so sick of jumping through hoops and pleasing other people. High School is over. I pay to attend this institution and would like to collaborate, not conflict or submit.