Can I have a do-over?

I'm not entirely sure any decision I've made recently is a good one. The fact that people still believe me to be capable of being an adult in real life is literally astonishing to me. The general discomfort I'd had with my life has now been replaced by self doubt. Also impatience. Things that are good right now: Pewter Doc Martens, Ear gauges, last month of being twenty years old, Halloween is coming, I love my friends. Things that are bad right now: Orchestra...and school in General. This whole re-shifting my identity away from being a trumpet player is proving to be easier than I thought it would be in some ways. Harder in others but overall...I think I feel good?

I'd like to go to sleep and wake up on Friday which is when I get to go home.