But instead I'm not.
What a horrible time for depression to sink in. Right when I realize that I don't understand a concept for my final project for Chromatic. I put my notebook aside and blog it up. Go get some chocolate. Ignore the pressing need to study other subjects as well. I pause to think about how nice it would be to be hanging out with a friend or at the park instead of here. I also think about how much I'd like a boyfriend...Then I stop. HA! This isn't me. This isn't anywhere NEAR close to my authentic self. Nice try, little voices in my head. It's easier to differentiate between us now. It tips me off, the desire to seek happiness in someone else. Nope! I can do this. I can do this by myself.
So, now I'm going to finish the blog and figure out how to modulate by enharmonically respelling a diminished seventh chord as a leading tone seventh chord in a new key.
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Aiyiyi. College chemestry class all over again. And Physics. And Trig. (The list goes on and on...)
oh dear. you sound like how i was not too long ago. actually, it was a little over a year ago. :[ i pretty much gave up on everything, school, love and life. i don't have many suggestions, since all i really did to get over it was tough it out. all i can offer you is a virtual hug. *hug*
funny:
i've read this post before and thought i had commented...
hmph!
oh well, i didn't say in my last imaginary comment that i really do think EVERYTHING that you are doin'?
is Good. procrastinating to blog, wishing you were at the park
chromatically schmomatically -
it all sounds
somehow -- becoming(!
veering towards depression
unincluded
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