And its going to happen. Im just not sure when...
Soon I hope. I have an appointment to meet with a counselor on friday. I feel like this is a positive step. One thing I noticed during these last six months (and throughout my life)was that I had a lot of issues that I thought I could ignore because someone thought enough of me to at least want to be around me. Now that I dont have that, it brings a lot of these long standing problems to the surface.
It's not beneficial to me that I keep reminding myself of my inadequacies. I don't want to need to hurt people just to make myself feel better.
It's true, I am a sad person.
It's true, I reject before (and after) I get rejected.
It's true that I contradict myself at every turn and will most likely delete this post later.
Why does it have to be that way?
I don't love myself. Yet.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
1 comment:
Well
i love you.
very much.
don't be so fucken HARD on yourself.
you have a huge capacity for
empathy and understanding and
advocacy
a teeny example is how you sometimes explain
your Nana's ANNOYING nosiness
in such a way that it's
tolerable!
if you could somehow turn that empathy and understanding loose on your own self. be kindhearted to your own self.
you most definitely deserve it.
Post a Comment