Saturday, February 21, 2009
I Cried
Today, I cried for me. I was walking down the road to the bus stop and i saw a guy on a motorcycle get hit by a car. He was twitching. I dont know what happened to him but he could have very well died. I possibly witnessed a death today. I cried for him. I sat down next to the bus stop and bawled in front of strangers. I cried for his family and what they would feel when the police told them. It's not his fault but, he got hurt. I cried for us. I cried for the world and how shitty it is right now. After that, I saw a couple holding hands in the car. I missed my MUNI. I was late for my junior qualifying English exam. I hung out with a friend and all I could do was ruin her day by talking about him. And how I hurt. And how he doesn't care. I was reading my blog comments today and I was so thankful for them. Apparently, I'm brave to realize all this stuff. I cried so hard at that. I dont want to have to be brave. I want to be okay.
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2 comments:
Oh hun, that's not fun at all. All my thoughts are going in your direction and if I wasn't here in NYC, I'd be running off to SF to go see you!
All of that is hard. But sometimes it is good to cry and really feel things like that. Sometimes it's all we can do. And sometimes it helps. Maybe it doesn't help the guy on the motorcycle but it helps our head sort of cope. Or something.
Anyway, if you ever want to talk, I'm around. All my good thoughts are going your way!
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i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you
i wish i could hold you and we could both cry together because
then neither of us would have to cry for very long
(that poor bikerider, he was just trying to get somewhere....)
I'm glad your friend was there to listen,
that always helps so much - it really does....and it says something about you that you Have friends like that...and i am soooo glad you do.
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