I've been thinking a lot lately (its kinda what I do) and all these thoughts are so conflicting and I cant seem to reconcile. My remedy? Blogging, of course. So, in no particular order:
I want to be happy again
I dont know when I'll be okay but, I'm aiming for March 13th
EVERYTHING reminds me of him (movies, facebook, school, friends, my house...)
I feel grateful that I've realized that I am not a hurtful person. I am, in fact, full of compassion right now.
I wish I could turn that compassion towards him. So, you're not sorry. You're afraid to be alone and you're just like me in that you want to be loved. But I cant get my head around forgiving someone who believes they have done nothing wrong.
I dont need anyone's validation. Admitting you're wrong doesnt make it any less fucked up. I know that what you're doing is horrible. I hope one day you realize that you cant treat another human being like they dont matter.
I feel intensely unhappy with my job and living situation. I'm afraid that I wont be able to handle existing in this space. I'm also worried that maybe I'm just being melodramatic.
It's going to get better. It's going to get better. It's going to get better
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it's going to get Way Better!
on your list of things To Do
you need to pencil in a block of time to heal....
and that shit don't happen overnite
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