I am so flawed

and yet, I am perfect. I hesitate to say that. Most likely, it's somewhere in the middle. But, I am not a mean, rude, or hurtful person. It's going to take a while for me to believe this. But, I came up with it today during work. I am learning a lot about myself in the past week. Some of it being actually good. I am learning that nothing is EVER bad enough to make me want to quit or give up. I was reading my blog posts from 2007 and 2008 and I'm realizing that even though I have grown so much and learned a lot, this current product is only a progressed version of that kid back then. He had a lot of good things to say. I'm greatful for the opportunity to learn that I am not a bad person. And that I don't need anyone's approval or validation to know that I am utterly and totally worth loving. The people that love me are right, and it's taken a broken heart to realize that positive or negative regard doesn't necessarily matter. I know for a fact that I will be okay. Just by being myself. That being said, I am in one of those ups in what they call "ups and downs". Tomorrow, I may very well go back to the Dark place that I have grown accustomed to inhabiting. But, I know that it's not permanent. And this doesn't define me.