Identify with what?

So, today's theory as to why I feel the way I do is the fact that I so readily identify with negativity. I make up the stories (last week's theory) and then embody that negative image that I've created.

So, my friends are getting bored with me whining. Then I identify with that obnoxious loser.
So, he doesn't love me. Then I identify as unloveable, worthless
So, I'm sad all the time. Then I identify with that depression

This blog is supposed to be positive. I've also been struggling (such a struggle, this life) with the idea that maybe I might be doing more harm than good with writing about all the negative aspects of my life. So, today I will talk about how good my lesson was. My teacher told me that I have a great ear which is something he apparently doesn't tell all of his students. I made it through another day. The hard part of this week is over. I get to sleep in tomorrow morning. I'm to a point where thinking about the past or the future is really difficult. So, I must think about the (slightly less difficult) present. What am I doing right now? Am I being truly myself? Feeding the good wolf and being authentic and deprogramming? I think I'm connecting with this moment and that's all I can ask of myself.