Supposed to be

I struggle with the concept of "Fate". It's difficult to believe that everything happens for a reason when affected by such unnecessary events. And the things that have happened to me pale in comparison to some. I should look into some Deepak Chopra or something. It's somewhat comforting to know that there is information out there that will lead me to find happiness inside. Everything that happens and continues to happen for a reason. I'm not sure. That seems like another way of saying that we all deserve the things that happen to us. I mean, yes we are the result of a system of choices, but I dont think that everything can be explained away with "That's life". The way I've felt for months now is just...wrong. I can't explain it but, I know I should no longer feel cold hurt in the center of my chest. Everyone deserves happiness, right? Even the fucked up, the hurters, the people who don't care. Even I, who once was one of those things, deserves to enjoy his life, right?