I've decided

Yes, I do want to have that conversation with him. I know it's not going to go as well as I'd like it to. But, there's something to be said for getting shit off my chest and some guidelines established. I need to feel at least a small sense of closure. Something. Anything. I do not want to be spending all of Spring Break worrying about what I'm going to do when I come back. I went to magic class with my housemate last night. That was an experience. Definitely. If I wasn't so enshrouded in misery, it would have been awesome. As it stands, I think the universe has a little more sense of humor than I thought. At least sometimes. There was so much synchronicity going on last night. The whole conversation centered around "authenticity". I choose to be authentic in everything I do, remember? Doing what your heart says because your head has been conditioned and programmed by the past. My heart says this situation is wrong. It has a lot of stuff to say. I don't really care about the repercussions. One thing that I thought holds particular resonance in my life: the heart doesn't care about outcomes.It's about the process. If there's someone that I need to say something to I should say it, yes? I still feel like I love him, even though my head tells me no. And I don't think the situation can get worse. Basically, I'm doing that little thing that has the possibility to make my life a tiny bit better. Closure, Catharsis, Something. I'd give anything right now not to feel like this.