So, here I am in Nipomo. I feel like I've reached a half cadence in my life marked by a firmata. Will it be followed by deception or authenticity? I need resolution.
Such a music geek. haha
This is a brief respite from the horrible existence that was my life in San Francisco. I'm becoming momentarily invested in the happenings here so that I can rest and come back refreshed to interact with everything that's going on there. It's unfortunate but, everything here seems to remind me of shit that seems to keep happening without me. I got a call from my future housemate. Apparently I got the place. This I'm looking forward to. However, I don't know what the transition will look like and I'm scared. And of course, even though I logically set out to establish a guideline that would prevent me from thinking about him, I still do. Sadly, I am also reminded of how foolishly and inexpertly I have given my heart only to be ridiculously hurt. In every sense of those words. I am living here for 10 days and already I would like to return to some life that has gotten a little bit better. Even though I know that once I return I will need the break again. I miss. I miss so much.
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